Day 15 - 22/10/31

I carried the same energy from yesterday. Didn't feel like doing anything. But managed to prepare notes for next lecture for my Ed channel and made 2 videos, one for each channel. I still felt unproductive. 

I am already dead, I have already lost. It's the fight that matters. 

Day 14 - 22/10/30

I spent my complete day making and editing video for my second channel, it took a lot more time than I expected. I watched India vs South Africa. Felt pretty low today, couldn't muster up courage to do anything else. 

I am already dead, I have already lost. It's the fight that matters. 

Day 13 - 22/10/29

Today I didn't make a to-do list, I did what I could. 

Read monthly magazine, uploaded a video on CI and attempted making video for my second channel. 

Watched movie salaam namaste. 

I am already dead, I have already lost. 

Day 12 - 22/10/28

8:17 am

Tasks 

A) Polity lecture, monthly magazine and newspaper. 

B) Write 3-5 pages of my novel. 

C) Upload a lecture. 

D) Prepare video or notes for my second channel. 

E) Write a blog. 

11:33 pm 

Only read newspaper today. 

I am already dead, I have already failed. 

Day 11 - 22/10/27

Alright. So, it's 11:51 am, let's plan the day. 

A) Newspaper, Monthly magazine and polity lecture. 

B) write 2-5 pages of my novel. 

C) Upload a lecture on Compound Interest. 

D) Prepare notes for video for my second channel. 

See you at 11:00 pm. 

11:57 pm

I completed B and D in their entirety. I completed task A partially, didn't take polity lecture, and couldn't upload lecture on Compound Interest due to no wi-fi. 

I am already dead, I have already lost. Fighting for the sake of it. 

Day 10 - 22/10/26

I uploaded a lecture on simple interest. Read newspaper. It's fine to miss out on things. Can't outrun the time. 

I am already dead, I have already failed. 

Day 9 - 22/10/25 #

I just wasted this whole day. I slept and watched a movie. It might take me some time to get back on routine. But I will be back. 

I am already dead, I have already lost. 

Day 8 - 22/10/24 #

Today is last day of my little stay in Delhi. It was fun. I was primarily here for my girlfriend and I am glad that we had such a great time. She is a pain in the ass sometimes but an honest, loyal, charming, funny and self-respecting girl. She evokes the good in me. If not for her, I wouldn't be where I am today. Her smiling face has always been a motivation for me. We have been in the relationship for more than 8 years now expect for one 3 months' break ( But that's the story for a different time) . Her test went well and I am happy that I was here for her when she needed me. Right now, I am in the bus to take me back to my hometown, back to my parents. Will reach around 4 in the morning. And will start my previous routine, will keep you updated.

Day 7 - 22/10/23

This day too went pretty fun, watched India vs Pakistan, a world class thriller. India won. Made a video for my non-teaching channel. Then watched movie Hulchul. I realised, I am getting better at facing camera. My goal is to be my natural self in front of camera, it will help me present my content in a much more better way, otherwise while presenting I lose my focus on my content and get nervous. 

Day 6 - 22/10/22

This day might also go same as the previous two.  But will buy books for maths and reasoning from Karol Bagh/Rajinder Nagar. I have never studied or lived at rajinder place but I often used to come here, to pick and drop my girlfriend when she was preparing for UPSC. And I always enjoyed coming here. Here one finds dreams crowding the streets, students discussing current affairs and books and notes marked with different coachings' names (claiming best for UPSC) spread outside the shops. When you exit the Karol Bagh metro station towards Rajinder Nagar, you are welcomed with the smell of freshly printed notes and books, tempting you to check them out. This place doesn't just attracts serious aspirants from all over the country, it also brings together the best teachers from all over India, who are paid handsomely for their services. This is Rajinder nagar in a nutshell. I feel happy. Got to go, show of Kantara is about to start. 

Day 5 - 22/10/21

2:40 pm - Well, today I am not doing any of my routine things. I am here, in Delhi, to take my girlfriend to test centre for her masters admission test and to keep her calm during all this. While writing this I am on my way to take her to test center, will update the rest later in the day. 

12:42 pm - 22/10/22

Last day went pretty ok. Had fun and did nothing. Drank, played and smoked. My girlfriend's exam pretty well. 

I am already dead, I have already failed. 

Day 4 - 22/10/20

It's 7:20 am. I woke at 6:40, did routine things, checked status of my YouTube channels and freshened up. 

Today I have to go to Delhi to meet my girlfrien, so I won't be doing my routine tasks. These are my today's task - 

A) Yoga, Meditation and exercise. 

B) Read Kitne Pakistan, Speech of BR Ambedkar and any other book if I get time. 

I am not sure if I will be able to do anything thing else, If I do, I will update it. 

See you @ 11.

2:34 pm, 21 October 2022

Couldn't update last (this blog) day's blog; busy partying and catching up with friends. Went to bed at 3 am. I did finish task A, but didn't feel like reading a book so wrote a blog instead. 

Ate things that I have been craving for weeks and drank and smoke. I smoke only when I am not following my routine and same with drinking. Played games and etc etc. That's the gist of it. 

Day 3 - 22/10/19

It's 7:07 am, I woke up 7 minutes ago. 

Here is my to-do list. 

A) Yoga, meditation and exercise. 

B) 1 lecture of economy, newspaper and monthly magazine. 

C) One video each for both of my YouTube channels. 

D) Next 2-3 pages of my novel. 

E) Will publish two blogs. 

These tasks are a measure to make me better and not the source of income or fame. I shall never forget to learn and never be in any kind of haste or pressure. 

A lot of the times we forget to enjoy what we are doing and we just want to fast forward to the results, which makes our life miserable. 

See you at 11 PM. 

It's 11 PM, time to report. 

Task A and D- done

Task D - 1 video

Task B - half a lecture of history. 

Task E - didn't touch

And, talking about yesterday's remaining tasks, I did read newspaper and finished 1 geography lecture. 

 

I must tell you that I listen books before going to bed, currently I am listening to Atomic Habits. 

We all are already dead and there is no winning,so stop worrying. 

Day 2 - 22/10/18

Well, it's 6:40 in the morning and I woke up just 5 minutes ago. Here is my to-do list. 

A) Yoga, meditation and exercise. 

B) 1 geography lecture, newspaper and articles from monthly magazine. 

C) Will record a video for my mathematics channel. 

D) one video for my second channel. 

E) Will write next 2-4 pages of my novel. 

F) Will Publish one more blog- Does motivation even work? 

Alright, see you at 11 pm. 

Well, here I am with today's achievements. 

I did task A partially, didn't do meditation. 

Didn't touch anything from task B. 

Completed tasks C, D and E. 

Well, speaking of F, I left it unfinished yesterday, and I still haven't finished it but I did publish another Blog, related to my teaching channel. 

Among the yesterday's unfinished task, I did read the newspaper before sleeping. 

I will have 100 crores in my account by the time I turn 30.

This is my today's final update. See you tomorrow. 

Day 1 - 22/10/17

It's not my first time writing a journal, I have been writing one on and off for about 2 years now. But this is different. No breaks in this. 

My planner

A - Yoga, Meditation and exercise 

B - 1 lecture of History, 1 of Geography, Newspaper and articles from monthly magazine

C -  Prepare content on SI, CI and Installment and next Essay for JCA

D - Another video for my second YouTube channel

E - Will write next event of my novel

F - And one blog on - " Why motivation doesn't work? "

See you around 11 PM. 

Alright, here is what I did today. 

 I did task A , 

task B partially (only history lecture and monthly magazine),

 I did prepare some material on SI/CI , so task C partially,

I did make a video for my second YouTube channel, Task D done

I didn't write anything for my novel

And I didn't write any blog. 

Seems I left a lot undone, because I got distracted once which ate up a lot of my time, then I got exhausted while taking the history lecture, not because of the lecture but because all the other thoughts about life and career, So I took a half an hour nap around 6 pm.

I might do some of the remaining task before going to bed, but won't post that update. 

See you tomorrow. 

All that I desire but might never have

There are a lot of things I desire and I not willing to give up on any of them. I will try to write this blog daily to convey what I am doing to achieve all of them. Now, let's talk about what is it that I actually desire. 

1) A heathy and fit body - I am into aesthetics and performance, so my focus is to maintain an aesthetically appealing body and also the one that doesn't hog all of my time, maintaining it; rather I need which supports me in my journey, helps me perform well. 

2) I want to teach - I like interacting with students, like to know what their future plans are and the excitement they hold for their future, inspires me, makes me happy. I like mathematics and I am pretty good at it and that's what I want to teach, but not want to limit myself to school level, I also want to coach students for different competitive exams.

3) I want to write - I like writing, I am an artist by heart. I like writing all kinds of things. From short stories, novels to jokes. I have no formal training in writing but one day I desire to write for movies and series, also want to publish my own books fiction or non-fiction.

4) I want to act - Right. I want to act too. 

5) I want an MBA degree - Getting an MBA degree is not hard, but I want it from top MBA college, I will wait for it.

6) I want to read at least 50 books a year

These 6 are the ones that I desire a lot and are also possible to achieve, then there are those which are completely absurd, I am little late to pursue them, but that won't stop me for dreaming for them too. Well, that's for you to observe what they are, from my blogs. 

Alright, let's begin with the journey.